(From Chapter 8: Reflections, pp. 77-80)

I can always help myself feel better by focusing my attention on something I enjoy and feel good about rather than on having diabetes, getting shots, the pain in my leg, or not being able to hunt well anymore.

I’ve had to accept that I have diabetes, that I sometimes don’t feel very well, and that I need shots (insulin) twice a day when I eat or I’ll feel worse. At first it was hard for me to accept these things, but it was absolutely necessary for me to do so before I could truly get better. But it works better for me to not give shots and having diabetes any more attention than I have to.

If I start feeling down in the dumps, I go out in my yard and watch critters or lay in the sun, get something to eat, hang out with Miri or Wayne, or tell myself I will feel better again and go sleep it off. Seeing how Wayne handles having diabetes helps me remember that I still have a lot of good in my life and that the low times will pass. Sometimes I forget and get caught up in feeling sorry for myself, but that only makes me feel worse. What helps me most is to think about what I can do right now that I would enjoy, and then go and do it.

The deep bond of love I share with Miri and Wayne has helped me handle the difficult experiences I’ve been through. I don’t think I would have made it without their love and support in so many ways. I didn’t fully know how very important their love was to me until after I lost Jase and became so very sick.

After Jase died, for a while it was harder for me to accept and take in others’ love or to get very fully involved in living, again. …Miri and Wayne’s love gradually got through to me during the many months they nourished me back to health. As they continued to care for me, I realized more strongly the depth and importance of the bond of love we share. I also came to clearly know that I wanted to continue living and sharing my love with them in whatever ways I can.

It’s like I had to get so sick I nearly died before I realized how important love is to me. Only then could I again connect back with life more fully, and allow their love to support me through whatever else I have to face in my life. …

It’s still important for me to do what I can for others, like being there for Miri and sharing about my life experiences if that can possibly help someone else. Wayne’s sharing about how he came to terms with having diabetes, his reminding me that I had to have shots to feel good, and his example of giving himself shots without focusing on them anymore than he needed to were all crucial in helping me accept having diabetes and getting shots. His sharing also helped me move beyond shots feeling like such a big deal to being able to enjoy life again.

I truly hope my sharing might be helpful to someone in the ways Wayne’s sharing has helped, and still helps, me.

I don’t fully understand how books work for you humans. Miri tells me that the marks she makes on paper with her pen or computer tell whomever looks at them what I’ve been sharing with her. Pictures make more sense to me, and I like the idea of having a picture of me on the front cover. That’s kind of cool! Miri also had me dip my paw in red food coloring and make a print of my paw on paper to put in my book. She says that’s a way of saying it’s really by me.

Miri spends more time with me since we’ve been working together on my book. I really need that, and am glad she’s finally taking the time to just be with me, listen to me, and hear me. I’ve wanted her to do that for a long, long time. She so easily gets caught up in all the stuff she has to do and forgets to make the time to just be still with me. She needs that as much as I do.

It was hard for Miri to learn to slow down enough to be fully present with me and open to receiving whatever I had to share without thinking about, analyzing, or judging it...She was worried what people would think about her if she not only talked to a cat, but also heard what a cat said back to her...

We cats, and other four-legged animals, feel, know, and understand much more than you humans usually give us credit for. And we also love to share and to be heard and understood by others, just like you do, especially by those beings close to us. If you truly want to hear us, all you need to do is believe this is possible for you, ask us with respect to share with you, slow down your mind, and be open to taking in whatever we share. We need to know that you truly want to hear us, and that you consider our feelings and perspective important to know about, as you would with any friend.

You must also be willing to let go of trying to make things happen the way you want them to and think they should, and just be fully present with whatever is there and accept it as it is...

 

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